after four days of not blogging.. well, i am back again.. hmmm. kinda weird rite? at this hour.. feeling gloomy(dunno spell correctly anot) now.. later going to do treatment and slightly cut my hair with dear at 11am.. yet, i am not asleep yet. =(

noon, went out with dear, wanted to studi.. but was fixing his wireless. until no time? as we bought movie tickets. watched Happy Feet. Nice and kawaii show~ rating for four bah.. reached home, watched anime... dan accompani dear play dota. after the game, somethings ish not right.. and here i am gloomy.. well, as for him. he went to bed le. wish him good nites, sweet dreams and dream of his new-know IRC fren bah.

yaps. feeling uneasy. did not tell him either. too popular is like tat? oh well, guess i shall take the blame.. who asked mie to fall in love with him.. rite? ferget it.. aniwae, who doesnt hope the relationship to last.. aren't i rite? well.well.well.. let him haf the fun he wants.. afterall, told him. i will let him have all wat he feel like doing..

sounded tat i m pathetic? hmm, dun tink so bah. frenship problems? relationship problems? studies problem? attachment problem? wad else do i haf? will i be free frem them? i dun feel great at all.. worrying on my studies, the rate i am going now. i am doing nothing. hais. attachment sux! jus a word, it sux! frenship.. yi ren rang yi bu.. but, how far is the limit? well, contraditing myself... =\ ferget it. relationship, totally speechless. =( onli one thing, only say wad we mean, if we dun.. dun sound as if we are, then making the other party feeling miserable. =
perhaps, i m too blunt in wad i said after the game which made euu moody.
when euu told mie euu waiting fer IRC fren to email euu, well.. i told myself is not sure.
but, the feeling ish so strong tat i koe tat is true.
wanted to tell euu i dun like euu to go IRC, but i also go IRC.
sensing tat the same problem both mie and clement counted, ish going to happen on us.
will tat happen?

i guess euu also dunno wad im saying bah.
suan le.
realli lurve mie?
feeling insecure.
sorrie dear.
=(

realli not feeling good at all. hais
shall stop here
running away from facts.
bb`