I'm blogging now in school.
Yes, I'm still in school.
Edited: I've cleared up the links corner.
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previous entry was totally super emo.
I can't help it.
In the end, guess what's my reactions?
I dozed off from watching one of the taiwan drama yesterday.
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&today I woke up with a 'clear' mind.
Cabbed to school, reached school to continue with the FYP.
Tomorrow is the big day.
Biggest day among my Poly life, having industrial panel to judge our project. &deciding to get any points from the 11 points that might be given out to each group.
I'm still here in school, with my 2 other team mates.
1 of them trying his very best to complete his part.
2 of us are giving him our moral support.
I went dinner with my friends at FC4 & will have to pass by Auditorium.
I always have this feeling that, whenever I'm passing by Auditorium, I might be having some chance to like 'meet' his gf (which I don't want to at all).
Appearing to be strong, but I guess I don't want to get the fact into my head.
I'm dropping this entry.
Bye.
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Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Monday, January 04, 2010
Exactly two months.
Today is the exact date. two months from break up.
& on the 19th November he's onto another new relationship.
& on the 26th December my friend saw him with another girl holding hands. (was a different girl)
So, what about me?
I guess, today I almost met him.
I saw his SPARC's friends, at another glance, I saw his classmates.
I believe that he's with them as well. (but still did not see him. - I seriously don't know what to do if I were so happened to see him.)
I don't know why.
Perhaps, I did not cry.
Did you know that if a serious matter happened, yet have not much expressions expressed, is something unusual? Somehow, all my feelings are kept somewhere.
I rather I can cry out, like seriously.
I want to let out my feelings. How could I?
I did not get to bed at all until 4am.
But I woke up at 6.30am, 7.30am feeling not a single rest/nap at all.
I'm not tired for some reasons.
Perhaps, I'm still hurt.
Perhaps, I'm still pondering over.
I don't know what should I do.
I appeared strong.
But, when's the time am I able to appear weak?
Sharing a video
為什麼不相信我 為什麼要懷疑我
一個不小心眼神的交錯 被當作亂放電的誘惑
我雙魚 為什麼天蠍要恨我
＊難道都是我的錯 我該生氣還難過
一杯被當做證據的紅酒 換來的咒罵(耳語)喋喋不休
你罵的 還不夠嗎
＃我要飛走 我要自由 我要用最溫柔的復仇
讓你一無所有 讓你在說我的時候 很有理 卻會心痛
△我要飛走 我要自由 我要用最溫柔的刑求
讓你一無所有 讓你在說謊的時候 想到我 會很心痛
我已經不會難過 沒有什麼好難過 就當我的愛掉進了黑洞
做過的夢是一陣旋渦 沒了你才有出口
The above bold lyrics totally spelt my feelings.
with addition “if only"
Sigh! :(
& on the 19th November he's onto another new relationship.
& on the 26th December my friend saw him with another girl holding hands. (was a different girl)
So, what about me?
I guess, today I almost met him.
I saw his SPARC's friends, at another glance, I saw his classmates.
I believe that he's with them as well. (but still did not see him. - I seriously don't know what to do if I were so happened to see him.)
I don't know why.
Perhaps, I did not cry.
Did you know that if a serious matter happened, yet have not much expressions expressed, is something unusual? Somehow, all my feelings are kept somewhere.
I rather I can cry out, like seriously.
I want to let out my feelings. How could I?
I did not get to bed at all until 4am.
But I woke up at 6.30am, 7.30am feeling not a single rest/nap at all.
I'm not tired for some reasons.
Perhaps, I'm still hurt.
Perhaps, I'm still pondering over.
I don't know what should I do.
I appeared strong.
But, when's the time am I able to appear weak?
Sharing a video
為什麼不相信我 為什麼要懷疑我
一個不小心眼神的交錯 被當作亂放電的誘惑
我雙魚 為什麼天蠍要恨我
＊難道都是我的錯 我該生氣還難過
一杯被當做證據的紅酒 換來的咒罵(耳語)喋喋不休
你罵的 還不夠嗎
＃我要飛走 我要自由 我要用最溫柔的復仇
讓你一無所有 讓你在說我的時候 很有理 卻會心痛
△我要飛走 我要自由 我要用最溫柔的刑求
讓你一無所有 讓你在說謊的時候 想到我 會很心痛
我已經不會難過 沒有什麼好難過 就當我的愛掉進了黑洞
做過的夢是一陣旋渦 沒了你才有出口
The above bold lyrics totally spelt my feelings.
with addition “if only"
Sigh! :(
Not to be seen
I've seen something that I should not be seeing at all.
(You should know)
Sigh.
I don't know what feelings should I put this in.
Should I even breathe this to anyone?
As usual, within 2 weeks everything is settled.
SETTLED?! Is that even the word to use?!
Or should I not even react in this way?
(What should I do?)
:(
(You should know)
Sigh.
I don't know what feelings should I put this in.
Should I even breathe this to anyone?
As usual, within 2 weeks everything is settled.
SETTLED?! Is that even the word to use?!
Or should I not even react in this way?
(What should I do?)
:(
Saturday, January 02, 2010
finally doctor seen
I've been sick since 29th December 2009 all the way until now.
It's a new year of second day.
& I've finally seen the doctor in the morning.
This morning at about nearly 3am, I got high fever again, for no reason.
Finally able to get to see the doctor. Doctor asked if I want to get MC, I told him to give me the MC on 4th January, just in case, I'm not going to the school. But I don't see the case anymore. I guess I'll still have to go to school on the 4th already :(
After I've seen the doctor, I cabbed to the school. I was in the total lethargic mood. Stand a bit, I'll feel very restless. The moment I reached school, the whole lab was like a sauna, no air-con at all. Soon after I've taken my medications, I fell asleep. I even skip my lunch with them (I totally feel not well, just like I can go blackout anytime) and stayed back to just sleep. At that point of time, I totally just feel like going home for a sleep. I guess it's the medications taking effects.
Talking about the medications, I've a total of 13 pills to take when I got to take the medicine. 8 types of medications, 1 cream to pull on, total of 13 pills to be taken. I guess, this is the most pills I've taken when I'm sick.
& I stayed all the way back in school until 8.40pm to do my FYP. At the minimum, I guess, our FYP is about 85% completion. :) I'm pretty happy about it. During halfway of doing my project, my friends suddenly said to me that, I look seriously pale & the type of people who just came out from the pregnancy room (Don't ask me why they use this as an example.) But I guess, that's usually how a pale person really looks like. For me, I seriously don't know about it. Perhaps, I'm really too sick.
Look at this picture.
That's the total of pills I've to take. Exactly 13 pills.
The one in green are the most awful taste that I'm dread of.
The one in white(big ones) are the ones that's I'm also dread of.
I guess, I dread of medications.
Alright!
I guess I have to rest early tonight to compensate my rest just now at the hot sauna lab.
Bless me with speedy recovery!
SHITZ! The pills are still stuck at my throat?!
It's a new year of second day.
& I've finally seen the doctor in the morning.
This morning at about nearly 3am, I got high fever again, for no reason.
Finally able to get to see the doctor. Doctor asked if I want to get MC, I told him to give me the MC on 4th January, just in case, I'm not going to the school. But I don't see the case anymore. I guess I'll still have to go to school on the 4th already :(
After I've seen the doctor, I cabbed to the school. I was in the total lethargic mood. Stand a bit, I'll feel very restless. The moment I reached school, the whole lab was like a sauna, no air-con at all. Soon after I've taken my medications, I fell asleep. I even skip my lunch with them (I totally feel not well, just like I can go blackout anytime) and stayed back to just sleep. At that point of time, I totally just feel like going home for a sleep. I guess it's the medications taking effects.
Talking about the medications, I've a total of 13 pills to take when I got to take the medicine. 8 types of medications, 1 cream to pull on, total of 13 pills to be taken. I guess, this is the most pills I've taken when I'm sick.
& I stayed all the way back in school until 8.40pm to do my FYP. At the minimum, I guess, our FYP is about 85% completion. :) I'm pretty happy about it. During halfway of doing my project, my friends suddenly said to me that, I look seriously pale & the type of people who just came out from the pregnancy room (Don't ask me why they use this as an example.) But I guess, that's usually how a pale person really looks like. For me, I seriously don't know about it. Perhaps, I'm really too sick.
Look at this picture.
That's the total of pills I've to take. Exactly 13 pills.
The one in green are the most awful taste that I'm dread of.
The one in white(big ones) are the ones that's I'm also dread of.
I guess, I dread of medications.
Alright!
I guess I have to rest early tonight to compensate my rest just now at the hot sauna lab.
Bless me with speedy recovery!
SHITZ! The pills are still stuck at my throat?!
Friday, January 01, 2010
Sick like totally
The feeling that's I'm having just like....
totally sick until like I've been lying in bed.
Keep on sleep and sleep through out the day.
& I told my mom that I won't be home in the afternoon tomorrow.
Guess what she told me?
She told me not to go and stay at home to rest, like for the first time!
Ok, to me, it's totally very shocking for me.
Usually, she won't care about this at all.
I've been coughing like mad. Just as if like, I'm coughing my lungs + throat out of my mouth. Do you know that feeling? Totally cannot stand it already. :( The right side of my throat is also killing me. Merely swallowing the saliva kills me. It's pain like totally.
But on the bright side, at least my voice is not totally gone already. It's coming back alittle. :)
I'm heading to bed once again. (Sick until don't even feel like using the laptop like seriously.)
Tomorrow gotten go to the clinic (like finally) + going back to school.
Goodnight.
(P.S: Please stop coughing.)
totally sick until like I've been lying in bed.
Keep on sleep and sleep through out the day.
& I told my mom that I won't be home in the afternoon tomorrow.
Guess what she told me?
She told me not to go and stay at home to rest, like for the first time!
Ok, to me, it's totally very shocking for me.
Usually, she won't care about this at all.
I've been coughing like mad. Just as if like, I'm coughing my lungs + throat out of my mouth. Do you know that feeling? Totally cannot stand it already. :( The right side of my throat is also killing me. Merely swallowing the saliva kills me. It's pain like totally.
But on the bright side, at least my voice is not totally gone already. It's coming back alittle. :)
I'm heading to bed once again. (Sick until don't even feel like using the laptop like seriously.)
Tomorrow gotten go to the clinic (like finally) + going back to school.
Goodnight.
(P.S: Please stop coughing.)
Happy New Year 2010
It's 01 January 2010.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
As usual, I'm still down with sickness.
1. Throat pain
2. No voice
3.Dry/Wet Cough
4. Blocked nose.
5. Green color phlegm
6. Herpes Simplex Type 1
The above sickness that I've got, I wanted to get to the clinic this morning.
The No. 1 to No. 5 wanted to get to my regular doctor to see. But then, it's closed! & I thought it opens on public holiday. Then I realized they removed that line that states "including public holidays", which means, they no longer open on public holidays.
So be it, I went off to another clinic to see the herpes simplex type 1 virus. Last time I had that before, so I went back to the same place to get the medication. I wanted to just buy the medication but they insist that, it's too long from the last date that I've visited. Therefore, I have to get to see the doctor. (The only reason that I don't want to see the doctor because, their charges are very high.) Indeed, I came out of the clinic and collect my medicines, only to 'cure' my Herpes SImplex Type 1, it cost me SGD$ 126.00! Yes, you did not see wrongly. That's very expensive, just only that sickness. :(
What's Herpes Simplex Type 1?
Often referred to as fever blisters or cold sores, HSV Type 1 infections are tiny, clear, fluid-filled blisters that most often occur on the face. Less frequently, Type 1 infections can occur in the genital area. Type 1 may also develop in wounds on the skin.
There are two kinds of infections - primary and recurrent. Although most people get infected when exposed to the virus, only 10 percent will actually develop sores. The sores of a primary infection appear two to twenty days after contact with an infected person and can last from seven to ten days.
The number of blisters varies from one to a group of blisters. Before the blisters appear, the skin may itch, sting, burn, or tingle. The blisters can break as a result of minor injury, allowing the fluid inside the blisters to ooze and crust. Eventually, crusts fall off, leaving slightly red healing skin.
The sores from the primary infection heal completely and rarely leave a scar. However, the virus that caused the infection remains in the body. It moves to nerve cells where it remains in a resting state.
People may then have a recurrence either in the same location as the first infection or in a nearby site. The infection may recur every few weeks or not at all.
Recurrent infections tend to be mild. They can be set off by a variety of factors including fever, sun exposure, a menstrual period, trauma (including surgery), or nothing at all.
& Here's the picture that how it looks like.
(source from: http://www.dent.ucla.edu/pic/visitors/herpes/page1.html)
Alright, now for all.
I'm heading back to bed again.
I'm sleepy.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
As usual, I'm still down with sickness.
1. Throat pain
2. No voice
3.
4. Blocked nose.
5. Green color phlegm
6. Herpes Simplex Type 1
The above sickness that I've got, I wanted to get to the clinic this morning.
The No. 1 to No. 5 wanted to get to my regular doctor to see. But then, it's closed! & I thought it opens on public holiday. Then I realized they removed that line that states "including public holidays", which means, they no longer open on public holidays.
So be it, I went off to another clinic to see the herpes simplex type 1 virus. Last time I had that before, so I went back to the same place to get the medication. I wanted to just buy the medication but they insist that, it's too long from the last date that I've visited. Therefore, I have to get to see the doctor. (The only reason that I don't want to see the doctor because, their charges are very high.) Indeed, I came out of the clinic and collect my medicines, only to 'cure' my Herpes SImplex Type 1, it cost me SGD$ 126.00! Yes, you did not see wrongly. That's very expensive, just only that sickness. :(
What's Herpes Simplex Type 1?
Often referred to as fever blisters or cold sores, HSV Type 1 infections are tiny, clear, fluid-filled blisters that most often occur on the face. Less frequently, Type 1 infections can occur in the genital area. Type 1 may also develop in wounds on the skin.
There are two kinds of infections - primary and recurrent. Although most people get infected when exposed to the virus, only 10 percent will actually develop sores. The sores of a primary infection appear two to twenty days after contact with an infected person and can last from seven to ten days.
The number of blisters varies from one to a group of blisters. Before the blisters appear, the skin may itch, sting, burn, or tingle. The blisters can break as a result of minor injury, allowing the fluid inside the blisters to ooze and crust. Eventually, crusts fall off, leaving slightly red healing skin.
The sores from the primary infection heal completely and rarely leave a scar. However, the virus that caused the infection remains in the body. It moves to nerve cells where it remains in a resting state.
People may then have a recurrence either in the same location as the first infection or in a nearby site. The infection may recur every few weeks or not at all.
Recurrent infections tend to be mild. They can be set off by a variety of factors including fever, sun exposure, a menstrual period, trauma (including surgery), or nothing at all.
& Here's the picture that how it looks like.
(source from: http://www.dent.ucla.edu/pic/visitors/herpes/page1.html)
Alright, now for all.
I'm heading back to bed again.
I'm sleepy.
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