Emotion kills

Today really is a bad bad day. I'm seriously got no mood to do anything? I felt that I'm doing work just for the sake of doing. Not feeling tired, yet feel like overstress?

Again, not really overstress but seems like no one is helping on my workload. I can sense that my colleagues are helping me. They are really sweet to me.

Asking me not go stay back late at office, helping me to clear cases in the system, concerning me, having talk with my boss etc. On the other hand, yet I've alot of things from various areas? Totally not describable.

The feeling is totally OMG. I literally flared up at my colleagues many times. I dont mean it, I hope I don't offend anyone. Sigh!

Moody!



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Updates!

Last night supposed to visit my mom, but my workload is too heavy. Thus, time delayed, din went again :(

Left office at 8.30pm instead. Late, it's pretty late. But on the journey home, PIE had heavy jam. Reason? Accident and someone is dead. The feeling when you saw someone lying on the floor is very eerie? I don't know how to explain, but it's definitely not a good feeling.

Anyways, I guess my work is pretty fun and loving, beside one colleague.



Fun communicating with my colleagues...



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4thagain

It's 4th. Oneyeartwomonths
Yay yay. I know I have to let go.

Last night, was on the phone with a lost long friend. The feeling is really good knowing when he's still there for you even after few years of din contact?

Anyway, he practically knows everything of me. &supposed to sleep like 10.45pm, but was on the phone with him until 12.40am. Dead tired, but lie in bed/ sleep until 2am. Auto wakeup! Sigh! Eventually, I feel that I din sleep the whole night :(

When I woke up, stomachache until now. T.T



Now, let me try to rest.

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Updates!

This week, everyday OT! Tiring too the max.

Yesterday, had a dinner gathering with my usual clique. Meeting time suppose to be at 7pm. But I only managed to reach at nearly 8.30pm! OT until 7.30pm, boss aka colleague drives me to Vivocity, but im lost at Vivocity -.- totally lame.. But it's a gathering ah, feel tired and relax at the same time.

In fact, the moment, I reached the place, I starts to yawn. Feels super tired :(

&i slept my day through out. All the way until 3.30pm, and again, I'm going to sleep soon! And I'm busy until I lost counts the dates.

Again, it's 4th again. Time really flies, oneyearonemonth already! Probably, it's high time to let go? I don't know still..

Prolly, I really love my tiring life. It's really tiring, at the same time, at the minimum, my mind don't go wild thinking. :)

Goodnight.

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2 weekdays w/o blogging.

If you have notice, I will blog every weekdays morning. That's the reason because I'm on my way to work alone.

But if I did not blog for any weekdays, that means I'm still on my way to work but it's with my colleague :)

That applies why there's missing entries in the weekdays. &usually weekends, I'm either resting or busy working for another job. Now, I'm still feeling tired.

But! Friday is awesome. Though I skipped my company's dinner (not D&D), I get to reach home at about 4.30am after accompany William for waiting bus at my place. Still, all thanks to Don for driving us back though you guys were in hurry. Thanks and million of thanks. I felt paiseh at the same time. Should have asked Don not to drive us back when we know he's in a hurry.. I hope everything is ok.

That day, end work early, of course! :)

Working overnight after another job ain't easy. It's tiring.

Now, I'm heading to job again.
Have a nice day ahead yeah! :D

Oh yeah!!! Weijian releasing his second album on 17 December 2010! I'm listening to his new release preview while blogging! Hehehe!



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8.30am onwards..

Last night, supposed to clean up and arrange the office, so that the moment we start the day, we can start work, but after we had dinner treat from boss, then we're told that, there's nothing we can do about it. That's because, the previous co.'s things etc are still there. And we can't do anything about it.

In the end, after the dinner, (by the way, it's pizza hut.) we went home. But by the time we left the office, it's already 8.30pm. Ugh, it's late right? But I guess it's just the work life yeah. :)

&as of today onwards, my working hours from 9am changed to 8.30am officially. That means I got to wake up half hour earlier. And on Fridays, I'll be going to work 24-hours. &its freaking exhausting, wanted to push it away, but, I guess forget about it. Hopefully, it will be fun, then I'll not so exhausted. Otherwise, I'll be totally knocked out in the weekends.



Fridays will be a coffee/caffeine day. Caffeine/coffee will be just like mineral water. Otherwise, I seriously wonder how can I survive.. Unless, I'm able to sleep as early as 8/9pm.

Alright! Hopefully, the workload for later, will be light enough. These days, I enjoyed running around to users for troubleshooting.

P.S: I heard from my colleague that, one of her friend, just broke up from an 8 years of relationship. Upon hearing, I felt that, even an 8 years of relationship that I thought it will be 'no-problem' relationship. But it don't seems the case.



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Conservative 2 days of him

Yesterday is the earliest timing that I knocked off from work and reached home kinda early out of the few days I've been working.

Today is gonna be the last day of working at 9am. Tomorrow onwards, 8.30am already. Hahahah! Gotta wake up early for work.

And it's conservative 2 days that I dreamt of him. First was a not very clear dream. Next is a very very clear dream. This dream is so clear that, when I woke up, it's like I'm in a reality.

Anyway, probably it's a good dream?



On this aside, thou my job is about HelpDesk Admin, I'm glad that I still get the chance to meet users and go around with engineers for few days before I really stuck in the office. Hahahah! But I think it's all fun and cool in this site office.

Have a nice day ahead!
I realized it's a very random post.

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Working 24-hours non-stop

Working on Friday, 24-hours non stop is really very tired. I'm exhausted all the way until now.

Yes, now. I slept early last night, today I woke up, still feeling very tired!! :( But to be truth, I'm still looking forward to work despite on waking up early.

Maybe looking forward to work for new things. Hahaha! I hope later at work, it's not going to be bored and nothing to do for me again. I'll get real bored. Hahahah!

&realized that, I've been blogging almost everyday when I'm in the bus for work. This is really a good time.

&this morning, I'm really very random. He appears into my mind, somehow I did see him in my dreams, just that I can't recall what is it. But whatever it is, I smiled.



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24-hours of work.

Today, I'm going to work from 9am to 6pm then continue to work from 8pm to 8am.

I'm awake since 6.45am. This is my first time working for the whole day non-stop after 3 years of rest? I've ever work in this way before in the past. It's totally exhausting. I really don't know if I'm able to stay awake anot.

Right now, I'm already still feeling tired, feel like sleeping already. I hope when I reach the office, I will be more energetic.

I'm prepared to have coffee at most of the time instead of mineral water.

&in this whole week, I have been attending meetings almost everyday. I'm not told if there's meeting today. However, my working shift is 9am to 6pm. Meetings have been ending as late as 7.30pm.



It's all because that we're following the Europe's timing. We're having meetings with the Europe, India, Malaysia. I'll say that all these experiences all new to me and it's good to have such experience. I wanted to upload a picture, but since it's having problem, I shall upload the next time.

Have a good day ahead!



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Some updates

I've started working Full-Time as helpdesk admin. At the same time, I have another 2 Part-Time jobs. &there's another job on hand waiting for my reply.

My friends heard that I've taking up so many jobs. Their first question to me was, "Are you in need of money?" My reply to them is, "I'm just working since it fits my schedule."

I really did not think so much regarding to taking up so many jobs. When the jobs come, I just take it as long as the working hours fits in the schedule..

&for the first time, I'm spending alot alot money on anything more than usual. My bank is kinda drying up. -.-! I'm waiting for my pay to get in and fill up the big hole. Sigh!

Oh yeah. I won't deny that now I'm busy taking up on jobs. The mind won't wild run. Not only that, last Sunday I went to Jurong Point, he went too, but I did not see him at all. Guess, this is fate....

On a happier note, I've gotten myself a pair of heels from Gmarket. It had arrived yesterday. My first time getting shoes online. But the experience ain't bad. To end off this post, I'm posting the pair of heels I've gotten for myself




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Random Post

I have been thinking, is it time to let go?

Anyway, I have good news.
I went for interview with HP and Singtel. I've gotten both job offers. I'm going to accept Singtel's :) I'm looking forward to it. I hope I really gotten it and not a false hope.

Mobile Blogging from here.

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It's fourth again.

Whole month of October, I realized I did not blog at all. &its a brand new month. &its fourth again. A new fourth means, it's been a year.

It's been exact one year.. &recently, I did received an email from him.. Though, it's clearly know that it's a invitation for some website, but I still feel a little happy

Anyway, this is just a random post


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F1 Racing Memories.

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I spent my last whole night in SP. Yes, why am I doing in school at these hours? I reached school at about 6pm and started off with my trip's itinerary. It's all the way until this afternoon, 2pm then I left the school. Did rested for about 2hours plus in the middle. We took turns to rest. But the moment I reached home, had my brunch, I'm knocked out already. Tired to the max!

All the way until 7pm, my mom wakes me up to help her to get her dinner, until now. I thought I will be tired and going to sleep soon after dinner, but I did not eh?

I watched dramas and cried,(memories just flows in) and in the living room, my brother watching the F1 LIVE racing. It reminds me of the last year, during this moment.

We rented the car shared with Andy's + his gf. It's a weekend car, Friday was a day out with our friends, Saturday we use it and Sunday Andy uses it. I remembered very clearly, it's on the Sunday. We went to Marine Barrage for 'picnic' and chilling. In the evening, we met up Andy + gf and they drove us back home. Yes, it's during the F1 season. Memories, these are memories. I still remembers them clearly.

&on the 21st September, rented car and went to play :) It's really a enjoyable trip to me. At the same time, memories flowing in too. We went to KTV. I did not choose any songs, all songs are selected by my friends. But the songs played are almost all the songs that we sang. Yes, I'm serious. It's almost all. At moments, I sat by myself listen and memories flowing in. But I still enjoy the driving moment and the time together with my friends thou we're really very tired at the end of the whole day.

Im serious, at this point of time, I really wish to contact him again as friends or whatever. Prolly a drive date?

Time really flies? It's going to be 11th months since then.

BIRTHDAY 2010

This is a very very late blog post. But I'm still going to post it out. :)

29th August, it's my birthday.

24th August, I met up with ShuChun for dinner. She surprised me with cupcakes as my birthday is nearing. &dinner was on her too! Birthday treat! Thank you my bestie!



28th August happened to be my Poly class gathering. I went out with them in the noon, had the lunch together, and went to Pool Fusion. Pretty just a class gathering, though not all of them were here. &thanks Saen for the lunch treat as my birthday treat yea~ :)

After that, I went off early as I had another celebration with my ITE clique+Ricky. :) I was not being told what are we having and what are we going to do. But, yes. I still know it's my birthday celebration from them!

First of all, we went to 木船 at Vivocity for dinner. The atmosphere is really good. (THUMBS UP!)



Next, we went to TCC at International Building for card games and cake cutting and not forgetting receiving presents!



We're just having fun and more fun. Until the present part, I'm seriously I'm totally surprised by it. Prolly, I don't look surprised at the moment. There's a total of 6 parts of presents in the bag.

I was told that inside the bag, there's 6 items. &it's a lucky draw. I'm supposed to pick a number and that's will be my present.

Then, I picked an number, and it turn out to be a wallet. &I believed that's the one and only present that I'm going to receive. There goes my Polaroid :(

Not the end yet, until Weilin gave out a little hints, then I realised that I still have presents to take! :D (I'm totally being fooled by it.) Then they continued with our card games. About after an hour, they bring out the bag again, then I realised that the rest are still meant for me!

There are, batteries for the Polaroid, Instax films for the Polaroid, Wallet, Card holder, Polaroid and $30 cash.

I'm very surprised that I'm getting these much. I'm expecting that I'm getting Polaroid only, not the rest of the wallet, card holder and cash. I'm really thankful with all the plans. :)

The day's expenses are all being covered already. The dinner, the TCC - I did not pay a single cent.

After that, all of us went home by night rider. &the moment I reached home, bathed, I totally have the feeling that, I don't wish the birthday is ending like so soon. Don't even want to go to bed and waste the time sleeping. But still, I slept :)

In the evening, went out to meet Yongxiang, Weesiang, Christina and her mom for dinner. I thought it was just a casual dinner + a gift and that's all. But in the end, I'm caught by surprised that they bought a HUGE cake for me. &dinner was treated by them :) Thank you so much!




The next day, 30th August, I met up with my cousin, and went shopping + dinner. Dinner was her treat as a birthday gift for me. We went Marche :D

With everything and everything, I'm very grateful + thankful for all the birthday wishes, facebook wishes, msn wishes, twitter wishes and all the celebrations + birthday treats.

It's a year without him at all. Though, to be frank, I'm still thinking about him, that for him to wish me happy birthday or just a text. It did not happened.

I thought that, the only celebration that I'll have is the ITE clique+Ricky's. This group of us will not failed to celebrate one another's birthday. Usually we'll celebrate on a day earlier or something.

In the past, my actual day left for him but this year's different already.

&in this year, I truly understand the feeling of friends celebrating the birthday for me &also realised that I really can't imagine what would happened in my day when no one is there for me.

How would I feel?
Perhaps, I'm being used to have someone around me on my day. :(

But then, these have not happened yet! :)
I'm really thankful + grateful for making all these happen! :)

The next year, 24th!
I'm thinking to have a hotel room booked or something to celebrate my 24th! :) Getting all the close friends together and celebrate. :):) Til then!



*All photos have already been uploaded in my Facebook! :)

HA?

To be exact, it's right after 15 days.
So. what does it mean?

Time flies, yea?

Yesterday, I went to Yishun, North Point.
It's right, nearly 10 months since I last went there.
It was kinda pretty short trip, didn't stayed long over there.

Just went for interview for COMEX fair's job, and left.
Still, I'm kinda know the place well.
It's like been there like three years plus, right?

If it's going to be oneyear, itwillbeoneyearforthemtoo.

Anyway, anotherfivemoredays, willyoustillremember?

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Put that aside, I'm working on a project, creation of company's website.
Prolly, will need to use of Joomla - which I think it's the best&easiest for me, right now.
I need to find out, how the database works for putting information into the websites.
I'm pretty confident to do the layout but how to access the layout via Joomla?

I'll need to do alot of reading later on.
&i've just kinda wasted the project timing from the 18th until today :(
I felt pretty bad for it.

I'll buck up and put my efforts in it.

Iknow forums+google can help me most :D

The last time....

I just read her blog.

They've been watching movies.
Well, I remembered the last time, we don't usually watch movies together..
Why? Reason: He downloaded them all &watched it at his place.

&now, they been out watching movies day and long.

SAY! what's this :(
ok, im still very concerned about it.

SIGH! =(

ninthmonth

I said, I'll come back to blog today.

It's 04 again.
itsninthmonthagain.
&guess what.

I met my driver instructor at market, &he told me that he saw him.
&evening time, I went to meet my friend, we talked about him.

the topic today was like him and him and more him.

Anyway, I seriously 佩服 my friend, from stepping out.
I guess, i'm just unwilling. :(

Sigh.

:(

I think

this hurts.

"Oh well. I think i remember him going Genting with his ex.
But who cares."

離別篇 （二）

離別對我而言，真的真的不好受~

我依然還是掉眼淚……
不然，就是眼淚在眼睛里打鑽……

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《最近》我聽了
有很多很多的回憶……
回憶依然在我腦力的轉啊轉~



你…… 過的還好嗎？







我想我變的更情緒化了。

“我們…… 會幸福吧” 這是歌完了以后的一句話

離別

我不喜歡離別

離別會讓人掉眼淚
不由知足的淚會從臉頰掉下

也許 我經過了不好的離別
然而 我現在看到離別的劇情
我會掉眼淚

離別的戲碼 依然會讓我想起 ‘我跟他’
我的眼淚就是我依然從我的臉頰滑落

結論是 我不喜歡離別

離別是感傷 :(